YurtTrash

discovering myself requires honesty
not enough
loving myself takes courage
not enough
letting go of the judgement
letting go of the control
not enough
we are one, yet separate
two different beings
two shapes that have come together
still separate, yet one
searching, searching, searching
hoping, hoping
always hoping
sifting through the darkness for what only needs light
it needs not judgement
it requires no fixing
so I put away my hammer [...]

The search for the unknown often begins when you don’t even know that you’re searching.  For me it was  as a child, in an enormous sanctuary , with 30 foot tall windows that covered the length of two full walls.  There was definitely something magical about that space.  I know that they were there…floating, high [...]

And sometimes I am just plain wrong. I don’t like this, but it is still true. I have thought for years that if I just try hard enough that I can get it all right. This of course is an illusion that I have created for myself. I would like to [...]

What happens when this public blog becomes private? For those of you who have blogs of your own or even post personal details of your life through various social media platforms, I wonder how you view privacy in this public domain. I was recently contacted by a family member that I have not [...]

Sometimes all you can do is go THROUGH IT to get to the other side.
We don’t always know what we are learning, but there is always a lesson to be learned…Maybe it’s just letting go of your own expectations. I find the word acceptance creeping into my head whenever I search for reasons. [...]

What a crazy mess of a day…Phoenix is a bit better, so we spent some time this morning outside. I have sooooo much that needs to be done in the yard it is truly INSANE! It was great to let Charlie run and Phoenix soak up the sun. It’s a rough time [...]

An eco-village is where I want to be. I don’t want to convert people. I just want to live with the peace of knowing that I am doing the best I can. Modeling my vision of the future! Teaching my children how to live in a peaceful way. To be conscious of what we do [...]

Clasping to the earth, the roots dig down past the decaying mass that was once a pine cone. They twist and turn searching…going sideways slightly before turning towards the core. They find their way around the various obstacles searching for depth…for nourishment…for stability. So much of this is rarely seen unless [...]

I sit here contemplating time and space…searching for meaning. I have reclaimed this time and space for thought…putting pencil to paper. I reflect on this writing therapy that I have come to love. In the back of my mind, I wonder if it’s just another drug distracting me from the [...]